How do i feel?

Honestly, i could not describe my feelings now.. I don't feel happy, i don't feel sad, i don't feel anger.. nonchalant... What i do know is that i just want to carry on with my life and live as long as as like alone.. i would not want to depend on people, i would not want to put hope on people and i would not want to hurt anybody anymore.. Am i going to be happy the rest of my life? for the moment, my answer is a definite no but God knows better.. future's unpredictable so let bygone be bygone.....