Saturday, 12 March 2011

Being busy body?

I am sure that most of us dislike other people who are not close to us and don't even have relation with us "take care" of our business so much.. It's kinda irritating... very frustrating and disappointing. It's truly madly deeply irritating.  The reason for that is i  have been neutral n do not bother about other people's business but why do some of these people become so busy body about me. Why must they interrupt with my life? Who are they to mind my business... They should mind their own business. I am a grown up so i know what am i doing. I know what's wrong and what's right. Yes, i should be optimist and should be able to accept flaws but this is way too much.. If it's at the surface, i can still accept but when it goes deeper and touches on many things, i can feel my blood is flowing fast and pressure's hiking up..Mmmm.. should i just kill these people???? HAHAHAHA..

Wednesday, 2 March 2011

Hectic days

First few months of hectic work loads..Need to settle one by one..don't feel like wanna stop doing but somehow need rest as well.. There are so many things to complete and work them dunno which one to do first... no matter how my core business is to teach.. my pupils should be my priority.. they should get the knowledge that they must acquire...
Working here is wonderful..people around me are wonderful and helpful yet there are also some holes in between...working life has taught me that i will be dealing with many different kinds of people whom that i like, whom that may be harsh to deal with..before this during university life, it was almost the same but not much salts and pepper like the one i face now... Nonetheless, a challenge is a challenge... strength will bring me through..

Sunday, 23 January 2011

It has been quite some time...

It has been quite some time that i last signed in... Having busy days at school. Being appointed with important posts so need to spare more time there juggling up with school work. Anyhow, everything comes handy when there's help.. All these will provide me with experience that could not be bought. There are so many new things that i have encountered throughout the work.. I was lost at first but slowly m catching up..With God's will, i hope to achieve success...

Wednesday, 5 January 2011

Over with misery..

Out of the haunted place, far far away..
Feel so much better than before..
Although there are still bits of pain felt, but not as painful as before.
Can do whatever wish for..
Do not want to care anymore, just want to focus on work.

Tuesday, 7 December 2010

Haunted by MISERY an HATRED

Having miserable days,
Although i do not show on face,
But it's hidden deep in my heart.

Having sleepless nights,
Although i do sleep,
But in my sleep i thought of it.
Having nonchalant feelings,
Although i look fine,
But actually i am not fine.
Having hateful life,
Although i don't say it out,
But i feel it inside.

THERE WILL ALWAYS BE HATRED IN ME>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>TILL I DIE!!!!!!!!

Sunday, 5 December 2010

How do i feel?

Honestly, i could not describe my feelings now.. I don't feel happy, i don't feel sad, i don't feel anger.. nonchalant... What i do know is that i just want to carry on with my life and live as long as as like alone.. i would not want to depend on people, i would not want to put hope on people and i would not want to hurt anybody anymore.. Am i going to be happy the rest of my life? for the moment, my answer is a definite no but God knows better.. future's unpredictable so let bygone be bygone.....

Saturday, 4 December 2010

Life is so meaningless

I feel damned..
I feel tired..
I feel depressed..
I feel anger..
I feel that i am doomed..
I feel so down..
I feel so disappointed..
I feel so regretful..
I feel so terrified..
I feel so miserable..
I feel like not living anymore..

Home is like a prison..
Hone is no more safe for me..
Home is terrible..
Home is disappointment..
Home is bitter no more sweet..
Home is freedom......